Lonely Breakfast

Christmas In Manipal, India

2011-12-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

My very first Christmas in India!

Organized by my awesome Class Representative, Morgan and fellow councils.

Christmas party was held on 24th of Dec at KMC Foodcourt. Not really a grand place but the event turned out to be very successful.

My Christmas wish card =D

Starting from here are pictures spam, scroll down of you can take it. Haha. In other word, I'm letting the pictures do the talking

Hopefully you had a great Christmas and a happy new year ahead! =)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

First Haircut In India

2011-12-18T03:38:00.000+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER

First haircut in India, not as bad as I thought. Quite expensive but it's worth it because they have a very good service. RS700 for nourishment spa, RS200 for haircut and RS150 for pedicure. A total of RS1050, estimated around RM70 in Malaysia.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Gurji Rocks My Socks

2011-12-18T03:01:00.000+08:00

My best advance Christmas present is when Gurji came all the way from Davangere to Manipal for me!

It felt like a reunion in President College again after five months of not seeing you.

Thank you so much for the roses. I love it so much, especially when it was from you =D

HAHAHA! and yes, sayang. I noticed that we always take the same style of picture but what to do. We rock. LOL.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

In Memories Of Theven Adrian Joseph

2011-12-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

I remember the first time you entered the class. My first impression towards you was "Why is he so tall and botak?" And your first biology DT was bad. You failed and you were so disappointed at yourself. You came to me and asked, "Can I borrow your biology notebook?"- That was the first sentence that you said to me. Since then, we became so close.

To be a doctor, you worked real hard. You studied so much. And I remember the day when you're so tensed up because of entrance exam and you always ask the lecturers to help you with it. When you failed your entrance exam, I can feel your sadness. But thank God that you had more options to choose.

You're the most humble person that I have ever met. Your dream was to be a good doctor and help the poors. Trust me, everyone knows you can be the best of all.

You always think about other people. During DT, you're always not at your table, sitting and studying. You're walking from table to table, teaching people how to solve questions. When other people need help from you, you never hesitate to help them at all. And I remember when we had a sleepover in my room during exam week. You're so busy teaching Suan Yin that you even forgotten to study for yourself.

I remember when I always scold you for not taking care of yourself, especially when you got injured so badly at your forearm. Everyday I would make sure it gets better and you'll be saying "dei, it's fine".

The day when both of us took our reward for getting straight A's during Award Day. Both of us make J3 proud. You're the one who motivated me to study this hard, Theven. Without you, I wouldn't be studying in MMMC now.

You never get mad at anyone. You're very nice to everyone, in fact. You never say "no" to me or Suan Yin, even if it means putting mascara on you or forcing you to wear high heels. You never mind, as long as we're happy. You never care, as long as we laughed. Where else can we find such friend?

I still remember when all of us gathered and went for swimming. For a guy with long legs, you're definitely a joker for not knowing how to float after so many hours of lesson when I, myself can float so easily. We had such a crazy moments together.

During Viva Presentation, both of us, with Suan Yin, made a pretty good team. You, with your nerdy look, never fail to make me laugh.

And the last time, we met was during your farewell. I remember you went to Low Yat just to get a new laptop. Suan Yin, Eugene and I came all the way from Villa Putra and Subang just to see you for the last time. And I didn't expect that it is really the last time I get to see you again.

Theven, I miss you so much. I never regret for knowing you. I thanked God as he let us to be good friends, You've left so much memories to me and if you're still here with me, I wish we could keep more memories together. I even look forward to attend your marriage, Theven. Of all people, why you? WHY?! Rest in peace, Theven. You'll be missed.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Till We Meet Again

2011-12-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

To my first Thailand friend, Pat,

Two months plus, it was a short period but I thank God for letting me to have you as a friends. Although we only know each other for such a short time, you have been so nice to me. You taught me basketball, you encouraged me to study all the time, and you bought me drinks.

The first time we met, it was such an unpredictable incident. Who would actually expect two strangers to know each other because of the dark? haha. Now that you're leaving India, please take care of yourself. I wish you all the best in your career and your life. May God bless you.

Thank you for giving me your basketball as a Goodbye gift =)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Mangalore Trip

2011-11-28T02:13:00.001+08:00

For the first time, I went to Mangalore yesterday with a bunch of friends- Daniel, Malindu, Alene, Shirlene, Henry, Hans, Yong Wei, Alicia, JingQin, Yi Peng, Pui Ling, Kwai Fern and many more.

Took a one and half hour trip and yes, it was damn hell tired. Reached there after a suffering nap.

-__-"

But it wasn't that bad. The place was like India's version of KL, just that it's less modernised

We headed to Sizzler Ranch for lunch and I got to admit, the food was expensive but reasonable because of its large portion and grand-like meal

And of course, my meal was delicious too

After lunch, we split up into two groups- one went to watch Breaking Dawn Part 1

And another group went shopping with me

Although it's just India, I spend almost RM210 in few hours. gosh, my habit hasn't changed at all.

And finally, I get to eat KFC after so freaking long of having "ciplak-KFC" as dinner

More updates soon :)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Diwali Open House

2011-11-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

Diwali Celebration! haha. Sorry for the super late update bout it. Was so busy with studies and exam until I got so lazy to take the pictures out from my camera. I forgotten when was the exact date for Diwali celebration but I know it was in November.

My friends and I dressed up with colourful Punjabi suits. Some bought it from Wedding Palace, some bought their Punjabi suits from Big Bazaar. As for me, I bought it at Wedding Palace, costing me less than Rs 1500. Not so cheap and yet not so expensive. Just affordable.

The Diwali celebration was actually just an open house. I thought it was a big function with grand dinner. Ended up with buffet and some lame performances. But in the end, it was fun because the council opened up a dance floor with awesome Indian songs.

Went back to hostel at 11.30pm after Baskin Robin and dropped dead like a big. LOL.

More interesting day to come. Stay tuned.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Block Exam

2011-11-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

EXAM MODE: ON! will be back in a week. =)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Light Manipal 2011

2011-11-03T20:06:00.000+08:00

Light Manipal 2011 is an event organized by Bread Of Light Church. It is an event where students from different universities such as MMMC, KMC, MIT and many more light up their lanterns with their wishes on it to the sky.

This year's Light Manipal 2011 was a huge success as KMC Greens was flooded with people. Almost 500 people attended on that night.

Obviously pictures are taken. (since when I don't take picture anyway? -.- ) So I shall let the pictures do the talking.

Blogger signing off. Bye Bye =D

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Happy Halloween & Light Manipal 2011

2011-11-01T04:03:00.000+08:00

Happy Halloween People!

It's the day you start dressing up like devils, monsters, princesses and etc. Yes, I celebrated Halloween in India this year. Not by throwing a huge crazy party but just a normal dinner with five awesome friends. haha.

Updates about Light Manipal 2011 coming up soon. For now, a few pictures to peak at. Stay updated :)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Answered Prayer

2011-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

Swee Teng,

You asked for guidance from God and yes, He has answered your prayer. He has showed you that he's not the right one and he will never be one. He doesn't deserve you because you have showed your best while he's there playing around with girls' feelings. The fact hurts but isn't it good that you have known his true colour? Yes, it is always better to be late than sorry. You might feel the pain now but one day, you will be happier. Trade your sorrow to the Lord. Believe in Him and everything will be fine. Don't worry about being lonely because He will always be there for you. Just stay strong. One day you'll find someone who worth your smile and tears.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Give Me The Strength

2011-10-19T01:13:00.000+08:00

Went to church last Sunday. Wasn't a bad decision as I started to believe in Jesus. May not a pure Christian yet but I am trying my best here. Tests are coming soon. One test in a week for three consecutive weeks. Wish me all the best!

Have tried really hard to get you out from my mind but you just don't want to leave. Sometimes I miss you but I learn to control my feelings. Wished to call you every two days but manage to stop myself. Trying to keep the feelings to myself but I still couldn't. I still express my disappointment to you. Tried not to be attached to you, tried not to make you an important part of my life but I failed. The only thing I'm good at now, is to fake a smile and laughters when we talked. The smile that I portrayed is fake but my blessing for you are real. I am mad that you never care about my feelings but at the same time, I don't mind being the hurt one as long as you're happy. As long as you have found the right one, I don't mind sacrifice. I don't mind giving up on you. Despite giving up on you & trying not to thirst for your love, I still can't let you go. I still want to know your whereabouts and life. I still care from the inside. Oh Lord, please give the strength to go through this obstacle. Show me the right pathway that I should go. Loosen up the heavy burden that is hanging on my shoulder.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

I Am Not Alone

2011-10-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

Time to pick up your smile, Swee Teng.

And let the memories fade away by itself. Move on, grow up, be mature and live a happy life.

Those moments were sweet but it's nothing if it's only valuable for one party and another party takes it as nothing.

Time will heal your pain, because you have your friends as clotting factors. They will stop your heart from bleeding again. They will remove your scars. You know you can depend on them.

Gerald, thank you so much for listening to my stories. Especially when I cry, sorry that you have to be the one shedding the tears away for me.

Fariza, you are the best when talking about throwing slippers. haha. Thanks for making me laugh when I can't even smile.

Suan Yin, both of us are on the same boat. I am glad that I have you to understand how I feel from the inside. You know my situation although I didn't say much. Lets move on together. We know we can do this!

Gurji, you don't know much about my stories but whenever we chat/talk, I forgotten about my sadness completely. You and your sense of humour really cheer me up, even when I am already happy.

And most of all, my uni friends for occupying most of my time so I don't even have time to think so much. You see, I am not alone. So you shouldn't be alone too. You have Micheal Jackson & I. =)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

It's Just The Matter Of Time

2011-10-09T16:33:00.002+08:00

Just realised that no matter what I do, it's not going change the fact that you're not mine. Hard to accept the fact but I have to. Don't want to listen to the fact but truth is the truth. You never like me. You were rebounding your feelings on me. So practically all the words you've said, all the actions that you've made, were just not real. All were just an illusion, a dream. Maybe they were right. I shouldn't have fall for you at the first place. I shouldn't have put so much hope on you. I shouldn't be so stupid, believing that the world is so pretty.

Decided to let go of you completely yesterday. Why? Because whenever I called, I feel like I'm annoying you. I feel like I'm not needed in your life anymore so why must I squeeze in your wonderful life? Removed most of the pictures that I took with you from my Facebook, threw away the movie tickets that we used to watch together, deleted your phone number. But what's the point of doing all these? Removing your pictures doesn't mean I have remove our memories from my mind. Throwing away movie tickets doesn't mean I don't remember the warmth that I used to feel when hugging you. Deleting your phone number doesn't mean I won't dial your number ever again. Well, at least I'm taking slow steps to forget you.

Forgetting you is not easy when I think of you all the time. Are you missing me now? Do you still care about me? Will you regret for letting me go? Am I still the princess that you want to protect? I asked myself. I know the answers but I wish the answers are the ones that I want. Why is it so easy for you to like me? And why is it easier for you to stop liking me? Why can't you stick to the one who cares? How I wish I can say "you're blind for not choosing me. one day you will regret!" to you but I know, if I say it out, I will be the one regretting. The feeling of letting go of something that you have always hold on to is hard. I am trying. I am struggling. But I know I am not alone. I have my family and friends.

I always tell my single friends, "why want to have bf/gf when you can have a lot of boy friends/ girl friends?". Guess that now it's time to say this to myself. Why do I need you when I have more friends that I can rely on? Be strong, Swee Teng! Now you might feel sad because you have to let go of your precious one but one day, you will be grateful because by letting go, you'll find your true happiness. When a door is close, God is always there to open another one for you. It's just the matter of time.

Knight5ive,

From now on, I'm removing your post as a knight. You no longer have the rights to be by my side. Leave my country and go to the country you desire. Protect your new princess because I am strong. I can protect myself without your help. I don't need you to protect me from dragons or stupid princes from stupid countries anymore.

Princess Swee Teng

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

You Still Like Him

2011-10-02T23:40:00.001+08:00

The reason you can't be friends with your ex is because you still love him. Deep inside your heart, whether you like it or not, you still love him. There will be a split second that you want him to be by your side, holding your hand, protecting you and bring you through the hard journey of life. But you can't express how you feel, you cannot tell the whole that you're weak. All you can do is keep things to yourself, swallow the sadness and pretend that things are fine, smile to everyone so they won't ask about the guy that causes all the sadness in your life. You want to die, badly but part of you want to be saved. You want to be happy but you just couldn't show a genuine smile. All you do is faking a smile and move on. "move on"- the word seems easier to be said but harder to be done. "move on"- I have said that so many times everyday but I still cry in my sleep. You can always hope but never expect. But hope is the reason you expect and expectation is the reason you continue hoping. I can live without you, I am now living without you actually but I just don't want to live without you. I want you. Call me greedy. Call me stupid. Call me anything because I don't care. All I care and want is YOU! But you, being so stupid for leaving me. Why can't I be smart enough to let you go too?

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

It's Not Easy For Me

2011-09-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

I have tried to forget. I have tried to hate. I have tried to be happy. But I still couldn't. I think of him every time I am alone, wishing he's here to make me smile again. I think of him every night before I go to bed, hugging the pillow that he gave to sleep. I tried to forget about him by trying to hate him but I couldn't. I couldn't hate him when I remember how much memories we used to share. I want to be happy but when I look around my room, it reminds me of you. The comfy bed that we used to share, the soft toy you love so much, the bracelet and necklace that used to be part of us, the smile that we used to have. I miss you so much, I want to tell you that. I miss you so much but I can't say that to you anymore. I can't tell you how I feel from the inside anymore. I can't share my happiness/ tiresness/ sadness everytime I come back from class.

Wanted to call you every seconds but who am I to disturb you? I don't want to be your little sister. I don't want to be your special friend. I just want you to feel how I feel for you. I thought if I ever wait, long enough, you will be mine but no, I was wrong. Sometimes, I just couldn't get what I want. I am happy, trying to be happy but the happiness that I'm feeling now, is not really the happiness that I used to feel. The smile that I gave don't lasts long anymore, it doesn't feel genuine anymore, it's not the smile that came from the bottom of my heart anymore. I miss being happy. I miss smiling like an idiot, thinking of you when we're texting. I miss the old times. If I can rewind the past, will you change our destiny or you'll just going to let it be again? Because if I can ever rewind the past, I would pause at that night we kissed.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

I Give Up

2011-09-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hye, if you're reading my blog, I am requesting you not to hate me. Don't dislike me because I am close to him. Don't hate me because I like him. Because I, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, like to have you as my friend. Well, I do admit that I used to be jealous of you because you were once an important part of his life but to think again, although we were just siblings, at least there's something rather than nothing. I was a piece of puzzle in his life. Not much but it's enough for me. You love a guy that I like, you love him more than I do, you sacrifice more than I can. I admire you for that. To love someone unconditionally for a long period, hoping for nothing in return, is very noble and I guess that I am not that patient. I'm not willing to sacrifice that much. I guess that I am tired already. I'm not even sure if I am able to win his heart. Or probably I won't win his heart forever.. I give up. I am not as strong as I thought I am. Sorry if I ever hurt you. I never have the intention to hurt you..

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Would You?

2011-09-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

When she satres at your mouth...

-Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
-Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
-Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
-Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
-Give her your attention

When she pulls away
-Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
-Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
-Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
-Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
-Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
-Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
-Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
-Reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
-Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
-she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
-Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you
-Bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
-Keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
-dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
-she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
-she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking,BABY?"

Would you read and do these for me?

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Evening Walk

2011-09-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

Went for a walk in the evening today. Walked a big round from 5pm and by the time, we reach the hill top, the sun set already. Such a beautiful scenery. Never seen such thing in Malaysia, in fact, I never get the chance to go for a evening walk or watch the sun sets in Malaysia. My family and friends think that I could just do it around my house area -__-"

And on the hilltop, we rested and camwhore! =D

Made a few new friends from my course too =)

I even get to watch the dawn, but most importantly, i watched it from India and not Malaysia!

Right after that, we went to China Valley Restaurant for dinner. Because I am sick, I didn't eat much again. Yes, Swee Teng! Keep it up and you'll lose more weight! hahahaha.

Took this picture before I left... and...

This bench here simply explains my feeling today- LONELY.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Maybe...

2011-09-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

Was reading through someone's blog just now and his posts touched every single piece of my heart. He was heart broken. He was left behind. He is alone. All because of LOVE- the feeling that cures and kills. And yet, he stays strong waiting for that special girl, who might not go back to him. With his patience and true love, he waits, even he has to stand in the dark, alone and with tears.

While reading his blog, someone came across my mind. And I was wondering, does he feels the same as the blogger does? Is he waiting for me too? If yes, why silence is running between us? If I get the chance to replay the past, would I want it? Or say No because I'm too scared to get hurt again? I really thought I was over him but sometimes, I just couldn't stop thinking about him. To think that he was the one that asked me to go online in Skype every night just to chat with him but he never show up, I decided to give up upon him. Maybe he just never care. Maybe he doesn't want to take the initiative at all. Or maybe he was just playing with me.

But it's alright. Afterall, now I'm not sure who I really love, who I really choose, who I really want. Singlehood is ok but I miss to be in a relationship. Singlehood is freedom but relationship is where I can express my love. Singlehood is convinient but guess that I'm just a girl who seeks for the hard way.

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

I'm In INDIA!

2011-09-18T18:55:00.000+08:00

Have settled down in India in just a week. Got myself Internet connection, handphone number & everything essential. Things weren't that bad and hard afterall.

My hostel room is awesome. It is clean and well furnished. Better than what I expected which is a dirty room with dirty water, has nothing but dust, insects, dirt & etc.

The environment here is pretty good too although it rains almost everyday and yes, an umbrella is a must to possess.Transport such as bus and auto is available at everywhere and not to mention, it is very cheap compared to taxi.

Not only that, the food is good. They even have Subway here. haha

More to update soon. Stay tunes =)

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Reached Bangalore

2011-09-10T01:53:00.001+08:00

Hye readers, I have reached Bangalore, India safely. Early morning tomorrow, I am going to take another domestic flight from Bangalore to Mangalore then to my college, Manipal University. Things in India is definately different. Food tastes different. People is different. Culture is different and people that you get to know here is different too. Now, I realised, no matter how close you are to somebody, sometimes they might not be there for you. Yes, I am feeling fed up. Action speaks louder than words. Don't bullshit with me. Don't give me empty promises. It's the same as not respecting our friendship. We're supposed to look after each other but I guessed that I am the only one who think this way. Anyhow, I will survive through this as I have made a promise with someone. Ko, here, in my blog, I would like to thank you for giving me a huge surprise, although you lied to me that you have went back to Sabah few days ago. Thank you for coming all the way from PJ to LCCT. Thank you for sending me off. Thank you for the fork & spoon and the pillow. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for making me feel like I am so special. Last of all, THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME! You are the best ko ever!

A nice emo song to be shared:

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Who Needs BF When You Have BFFs?

2011-09-05T22:00:00.001+08:00

Friends might leave you one day but TRUE friends will always be there for you, at anytime, anyhow.

Had my last outing with my college mates today. Most of them tried their best to come although some of them have transport problem and thank you so much for doing this for me, guys!

And definately, we had lots of fun. We felt one year younger. It's like we are back in Disted college, going for two hours lunch, snapping pictures and etc. But this time, our "lunch" took us more than two hours, almost eight hours to be exact.

We went to Disted cafeteria, had a chat for two hours; went for lunch at Nandos; went arcade to play DDR, backetball and Daytona; went BSN went to New World Park for ice kacang and tea; then learnt how to drive manual car in college compound. Haha. Those fun moments that I had, is love

Oh ya, forgotten to introduce to you, my new wife =D

aren't we sexy? hahaha!

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

2011-09-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

★ Swee Teng

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I do not regret one moment of my life- Lillie Langtry

Last Week Of Aug With Fantastic Friends

2011-09-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

Have been going out a lot lately. Trying to spend more time with my friends before leaving to India. Counted the number of days that I have left in Penang. One week. Such a short time and I still have so many things to do.

On 25th of August, had a day out with Wismen. That girl, still the same. Never change, but that is Wismen. Awesome as ever. haha.

Presenting to you, her middle finger. LOL.

On the 29th, hang out with Khai Wei again. We went to Queensbay this time. He accompanied me to shop for clothes. Pity lil guy. Gotta follow me like a boyfriend following a girlfriend to shop for cheap clothes. haha.

On 29th, my so-called "ex bf" came from KL and paid me a visit! Such an awesome friend, isn't it? And surprisingly, he actually stayed very near to me. 5 minutes drive only. o_o Thank you so much for coming here, Jon! I always thought you were just joking about coming to Penang.

The next day, 30th of August, my godbro came and he definitely made me my day. He stayed for three days and two nights. We had great moments together, walking around the beach, playing jetski, shopping, food hunting and many more =) Thank you for coming to Penang too, ko but most of all, thanks for making me a very happy girl. I am glad that you made an effort to see me before I leave for India. I Love You!

Bumped into my gay partner when my godbro and I went shopping in Gurney Plaza on 31th of August.

Well, that is how I spent my last week of August. More outing to come. =D

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Outing With Khai Wei

2011-08-27T03:02:00.000+08:00

Went out with Khai Wei yesterday. After months of argument, we're back to normal as friends. And yes, long time no see, babi. You have changed a lot! We watched Final Destination 5 at Prangin Mall. Pity fella, I can't get rid of my habit of scratching and squeezing people when the intense scene is coming out. And this stupid guy has been laughing throughout the whole movie while I'm freaking out.

And surprisingly, I bumped into babi Ernest. But once again, he wouldn't take picture with me and yet, he's leaving next week, which is a week before I leave to India. Thanks a lot, GOOD friend! All I ever wanted is you to treat me nicely and take a picture with you but you punched me! )(*&%^&%!^&)_(@_@!!

And before I forget, thanks for fetching me, Khai Wei =D

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Hidden Pain Behind A Smile

2011-08-26T03:35:00.001+08:00

Do you really care about me? I think you do but I'm not sure of the answer myself. Are you taking me seriously? Judging by the way you treat me, you are serious but sometimes, you make me doubt you. You know how much you mean to me but I really don't know how much I am to you. Sometimes I don't care about status, but sometimes I feel insecure. I do not know when are you going to stop liking me, I don't know when are you going to put a distance between us, I don't know when things are going to change. I have everything under control now but what about the next minute? When you decide to leave?

I really wish you'll call me every week to make me feel safe but I can't wish for more as you do not belong to me. Everytime we SMS, I count every single minutes that you need to reply my text. After five minutes, I panic. I started to worry, thinking that you have forgotten about me. Although for now, you are giving me happiness but deep inside my heart, I am worry too, very very worry. You ask me to let it be, I tried real hard but speaking is easier than doing it. I am struggling trying to hold on to this not-known-future-relationship. I'm trying my best to control my feelings for you so I won't fall for you deeply. I'm scared to get hurt as much as you're scared to hurt me.
You may think I do not know your heart but I guess that same goes to you too. I hope I can share my thoughts and feelings to you but the last time I did that, we ended up fighting for our stand. Honesty is what you asked for but sometimes, hiding the truth is better than saying what your heart wants to. You do not know how many times I have been trying to say "I Love You" but after I typed that in my phone, I pressed "Cancel" instead of "Send" because who am I to say that? I am not your girlfriend.

All I ever can say is "I Miss You" because there are too much of memories that we have shared. You once asked me, "You're not fair, I always give you kisses especially before I go to sleep, and you didn't". Frankly speaking, I don't have the rights to give you any kisses. I'm scared I'm giving too much than receiving. I'm scared if I do that, I'll be more attached to you. I'm scared of a lot of things and do you know that? I might be a daring girl who likes adventure but I am still a girl, fragile from the inside. I think of you all the time. My laptop wallpaper, my phone wallpaper, my ringtone, my blog song player & etc, everything is related to you. Every single thing that I do, is all because of you. You said you misses me but can you prove it to me?
Not ready, that was your reason to reject me. Hurt, that was your reason to keep a distance between us. Not being selfish, that was your reason for asking me to let you go. What about my feelings?! What about the feelings that is sparkling between us? Love, can't that be the reason that put us through ups and downs? Courage, can't that be the reason for you to take the risk? Me, can't I be the reason you're fighting for?
You don't know how many times I have tried to tell myself that you are not mine. The happiness that I'm having now is just temporary. One day, I have to return it to the girl of your choice. I have to do things like lying to myself that you don't like me, you're just playing with me, I'm just a replacement. I hurt myself so that I will stop liking you but the more I hurt myself, the more pain I feel. Behind every happiness I show to you, there's pain. Can you see that?

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

MMMC Orientation Day

2011-08-21T18:39:00.001+08:00

Just came back from orientation at MMMC yesterday. The whole orientation was not much. It answered a lot of questions that I have but it doesn't explain how the system in India works. Get to meet up with Gerald and shared lots of my stories with me, as usual. But couldn't meet up with Jeremy and Suan Yin.

For all this while, I have been planning on my packings to India but I never actually count the number of days that I still have in Penang or Malaysia. I have nothing much to worry about in Penang & Malaysia, except for mum & him. Despite being worry, I am excited to go India. To meet new friends, to learn to be mature, to be more independent. Life in KL has taught me a lot and I hope life in India would be better. In India, I really must work hard and study to pass my exam. I cannot resit, I cannot fail my exam. Not only resitting exam will cost a large amount of money, I do not want to be left behind when all my friends move to Year 2 while I'm still stuck in Year 1. As for him, I'm worry. I am scared. All feelings are mixed up. I'm worry that things will change when I'm back. I'm scared he will falls for other girl. I'm really scared that after what we have gone through, we're nothing but just sister and brother. I like him, I love him, I want him. Those feelings that I have for him, I wanted to express it out but I can't. I want us to be more than just friends or siblings. I want to see how far we can go but all this waiting is breaking my heart and my hope for him. I am happy that for now, he's there for me but I am scared that he won't be there for me anymore if he found a new one in his life. I'm happy that he likes me but I'm worry that I'm not the one that his heart is beating for. I'm am glad for now, things are going smoothly for us. But at this distance, this time, what else can we do? And when I leave to India, there's less chances that we can even communicate. This might be a test for our love but will both of us pass this test?

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Girls Moment

2011-08-18T00:57:00.001+08:00

Finally get to spend some time with my college friends. After so long of not seeing each other, we definately have so many things to catch up. Sharing love stories & problems, gossiping and shopping. Things that girls usually do. Did not manage to watch movie but I had fun. I'm glad that I have them as my good friends =)

Not to forget, all the best in IMU, Nadzira!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Zoo Negara

2011-08-06T00:13:00.001+08:00

Another awesome trip with my friends to Zoo Negara before I left.

Let the picture speaks for itself

HAHA! These two really reminds me of The Rise Of The Planet Of Apes

And my awesome buddies. ^^

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

iCity @ Shah Alam

2011-08-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

I have two awesome good friends in KL, who treated me like a princess all the time. They brought me to iCity, a place where I never been to and they knew that this place would amaze me.

Ko, thank you for willing to bring me to iCity although you have no more money.

Gurji, thank you more for coming all the way from JB just to see me.

Three of us actually went to Snow World but because the temperature is very low, we didn't bring in our camera. Wanted to buy pictures but lack of cash. =(

Then, they brought me to Reptiles Museum.

But the most important point of iCity is the lights at night. So beautiful. It's like the whole town is surrounded by neons. I was fascinated by the view. Thank you so much for everything, guys. I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH THAT EVEN WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE IT!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Absolute Fitness

2011-08-01T23:19:00.001+08:00

Feel better today. Didn't emo, which is a good sign to live a healthy lifestyle. Haha. I also went to gym today. Absolute Fitness isn't really a good gym compared to Fitness First. Their equipment are complicated and yet there's not much of variety. Their classes are very few too and BodyCombat will only be commenced when I leave. Damn lame. Their shower room doesn't have a place where I can hang my clothes. No lock to my locker. I need to bring my own padlock. There's no free soft drinks. Only coffee, tea and water. Even that, we need to wash the cup after using it.
Thank God the purpose of me going to gym is to lose weight and not for fun or as a hobby. My membership will only lasts for one month then I'll be leaving to India. I really hope that by working out, I can feel more confident. I want to be fit and feel sexy! GO SWEE TENG!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Lovesick

2011-07-31T23:52:00.001+08:00

Everything that I do, see and feel reminds me of you. You dance in my mind all the time. Not receiving your text every five minutes is killing me. I miss you so much and I want to tell you so badly but I lost my courage. I'm too scared to be a desperado. Maybe I should start being independent and stop being so attached to you. Should I? I know I can but I don't want. Man, I am so stubborn and stupid. =x

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Back To Penang

2011-07-30T23:27:00.001+08:00

Finally I'm back to Penang, the place where I belong. Few months ago, I keep wishing that I will finish my course and go back to Penang as soon as possible. I was homesick! Everything in KL doesn't really matter to me that time. As time passes, my perspective changes. KL is like my home. My friends are like my family. Everything and everyone in KL mean a lot to me. Now that I'm back in Penang, I feel lost. I don't feel happy. I feel empty. Yes, I have everything in Penang. I have cars. I don't have to walk or take LRT/ Monorail like when I used to. I have no worries about money when I'm in Penang. I get to eat nice stuff in Penang but somehow, I miss roti canai and mee goreng that I always have as my lunch.
Sometimes, I wish that time could just stop.. I miss KL life. I miss everyone.. But I miss you more, Kight5ive..I miss you so badly that I can't even think straight..

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Bon Odori 2011

2011-07-23T13:48:00.001+08:00

This year's Bon Odori was different from the other years. Instead of bringing my boyfriend, I brought my godbrother to Bon Odori. Different people definitely bring different meaning in this event this year. I had fun showing my godbro around Penang and telling him how much Bon Odori means to me.

Bumped into my high school friends- Danielle, Carmen, Karen's bf & Karen

Water balloons are always my No. 1 game in this event. Not to mention, my godbro actually had fun and enjoyed it.

At 10pm sharp, as always, fireworks!

Met the babi Ernest after that. Stupid fella that doesn't allow me to take picture of him or taking picture with me

Went straight home after that. Bon Odori 2011 was awesome! Too bad I couoldn't celebrate Bon Odori 2012 next year.

That's all for now. Bye bye!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Two Weeks Left

2011-07-04T19:05:00.001+08:00

Now that exam has end, I left two weeks more to spend time with my beloved dearest course mates.Six months, sounds so short and yet it has build a strong bond between each and everyone of us. Small class and everyone is like a family to me. Without them, I wonder how will my college life be.
After two weeks, everyone will be leaving for their respective universities of choices. Some will be back few years later and some might not. Some will still be close to me and some might even forget what we actually went through before. I don't mind, I'll let everything flows by itself. All I know is, they make the me today. Without them, who am I. I love you guys so much!

May this friendship lasts forever!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

New Hair Colour & Camera

2011-06-30T01:04:00.001+08:00

Got myself a new camera after being persuaded my mum. Never have the intention to get a new digital camera since I already have a DSLR but mum insisted because my digital camera might die anytime soon.

Canon A3200 IS, I got it at a cheaper price. RM 520, including an upgrade from 4GB memory card to 8GB, a casing and including a tripod stand. Everything in total supposed to be Rm570 but I guess that Low Yat Plaza just gave me discounts. LOL.

Not only that, after exa, I dyed my hair!

BEFORE

AFTER

Well, actually it's a failed plan. The colour wasn't supposed to be reddish brown. It supposed to be dark brown but somehow there was a technical problem in the middle of the process and walah, my hair is RED under the sunlight and super brown under the shade. Including hair treatment, everything costed RM208. Quite cheaper after a 20% discount from Derrick & Team Saloon =)
More to update. Stay tuned

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Restaurant CH Sdn. Bhd.

2011-06-27T14:31:00.001+08:00

Restaurant CH Sdn. Bhd.

Had an awesome lunch with dad last week when he came over to KL. Brought me to eat some Chinese food after months of roti canai(s)

Well, he supposed to order shark fin soup for me but guess that he was so blur enough to get me abalone instead. HAHAHA!!

As to fulfil my crave, I finally get to eat roasted pork skin. yummy, baybeh! <3

Tender meat with crunchy skin is LOVE

And dad last minute decided to order me shark fin soup. And yea, I'm over blessed and bloated =P

Don't you ever think that family is always the best? Because they are to me =D

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Photoshoot

2011-06-26T04:08:00.000+08:00

Photoshoot

Had a photoshoot session for my college last week. I had great fun posing and laughing around especially when there are five French people to join us. Haha. Exam is over. Yea, I'm totally free now. Ask me out please. LOL. More updates to come. Stay tuned.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

2011-06-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

Exam mode: ON will be back after a week.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Ultimate Power Star At Timesquare, KL on 4th June

2011-06-08T01:29:00.000+08:00

Ultimate Power Star At Timesquare, KL on 4th June

From left: Kopi Lim, Amy Boon, Vivian Chua

On the 4th of June, I went to Timesquare for movie and coincidentally, I bumped into the Ultimate Power Star Top Three contestants. Without hesitance, I took a picture of them. I could actually approach Kopi for free ticket/ voucher for something but I was so shy. Stupid me. And according to my godbro, Vivian is pretty, but to me, Kopi is so cute and round. LOL. All the best to three of them and may the best be the last one standing on the stage =D

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Cheer Up

2011-06-05T15:31:00.000+08:00

You said you're moving on, but why are you still sad? Give yourself a slap and a wake up call. You know you are better than what you thought

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

2011-06-05T02:27:00.000+08:00

FACEBOOK WILL BE DEACTIVATED FOR THE MOMENT DUE TO PERSONAL ISSUE ★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

I Don't Know LOVE

2011-06-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

I Don't Know LOVE

I'm sorry for being emo recently. Couldn't help with my emotions. It's been down for many weeks and yet, it is not recovering. Now I'm trying to move on. Hard but I'm trying my best. I wanted to tell him that I miss him so much but somehow something stops me. I wanted to go back to him but I know that we won't be able to go back to the past again. No more lovey dovey, no more sweet moments, no more messages spamming inbox, no more bedstories at night.

Sometimes, how I wish you'll turn back and look at me again, giving me those warm melting smile that cheers up my heart. I always wish that you are mine forever but obviously, it is not. Those sweet words you said before are all blind promises. No sincere meanings behind it but just beautiful lies to fool me. There's no point telling or lying to myself that you will be come back to me. I'm not expecting anything from you too. Too much of disappointment and heartbroken. Wouldn't want to be hurt again.

Yea. things have changed. He directs his care, love and heart to another girl and I, living in loneliness and sadness but it's ok. I'll get over it soon. My friends have been such a good supporter. They are there to give me advices, encouragements and motivations. I may be a little bit stubborn for not listening to all of the advices and I really appreciate what they have done for me.

When I see couples in public- train stations, cinemas, shopping malls, restaurants and etc, I wonder if they really love each other. Is the "love" in them really "love"? Or "love" is just a substitution for loneliness? I started to doubt what is "love" or to be exact, I don't know "love" anymore. It seems so hard to define it, too subjective. My belief in love starts to fade too. I don't know what should I do. I miss "love" but I don't know where it is. I want "love" back but I'm scared to hold on it. I love "love" but does "love" loves me?

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Not To Love Again

2011-05-31T16:03:00.000+08:00

Not To Love Again

Just when I'm trying to concentrate in one relationship, my greediness and confusion screwed it up for me. Just when I thought there will be another door opened for me, it seems that the door is locked but there's no key to open it. When all I want is to go back to the past, everything has changed. Nothing is the same anymore. This is so tiring. Whenever I start putting hope on a relationship, there's always obstacles. Not only that, I couldn't find the "First Love" feeling that I'm always searching for. The feeling is just not there. Maybe there wasn't any feeling from the start or maybe everything was just a foolish game. I don't know. I'm tired for being disappointed and jealous all the time. It sucks and it just turned me into a bad person and I dislike that. Everything happened without a plan. Things changes without knowing. It'll be better if I stop giving a damn on all these piece of rubbish in my life. So yea, I have determined. I shall be single for now, at least for the next few years until I found the Mr. Right, or just be single. Single hood can be fun too.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Pirates Of The Caribbean 4

2011-05-28T17:26:00.000+08:00

Pirates Of The Caribbean 4

Went to Mid Valley last week and saw so many booths were opened to promote Pirates Of The Caribbean 4. One of them was the Lego Companies. A booth for body art were opened too. RM29 for such a small tattoo. Seriously, this is sucking my blood out. x(

And since Pirates Of The Caribbean is the "in" trend now, so many people came and had a look. The most interesting part of the whole function is the big pirate ship located in the middle of the shopping mall.

my godbro

Even I also took a picture with the pirate ship. HAHAHAHHA.

Have you watch Pirates Of The Caribbean 4? I heard it's nice =D

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

2011-05-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

Do you know what are the suckiest part of life?

It is when you don't know what you are doing and what you want
This is what I'm feeling now. I'm happy but I greed for more. I get what I want but I want more things. I'm getting more selfish and greedy by days. Just wake me up already. Someone just got to remind me that this is not my world. I can't have everything by myself! *slaps*

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Love?

2011-05-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

Love?

Sometimes I wish I can just go in front of the guy that I like and say "HEY YOU! YES, YOU! BE MY BOYFRIEND". But no, I never have that courage and I don't think I will ever have that courage. Saying such thing out is like breaking my own principle of being a strong woman. After all, it is never a nature for a girl to ask a guy. Blame my ego.
Besides that, why is so hard for a guy to open his mouth and confess? I mean like both of us know how we feel for each other. What matters now is whether he wants to do something about it or not. Fine, maybe I shouldn't think and put my hope up high but his actions showed it all. Now I'm pretty confused. Does he likes me or we're just making each other happy like some no-string-attached relationship?So many people are in relationships. I admit, I'm kinda jealous. But again, what can I do again? Ugh.

This is bad. The more I'm confused, the more mistakes I'm making. How I wish I can just slap you for making fool of me. Can you just tell me how you feel already? =(

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Sticky is now in Kuala Lumpur!

2011-05-21T17:27:00.000+08:00

Sticky is now in Kuala Lumpur!

Just for you to know, Sticky is a group of highly skilled and dedicated confectioners, recognised internationally as specialists in high quality, hand-made, rock candy style lollies and candy art for weddings and corporate promotions. (http://www.sticky.com.au) .

Sticky are located in Pavilion, KL @ Lower Ground floor.

Sticky are available in many colours and flavours. They are even packaged in a nice bottles. Suitable and just nicely to be given to people as souvenirs or gifts. Not only that, the pricing is quite affordable.

So remember to buy a few bottles from Sticky and get sticky =P

ps: pictures were taken using phone. sorry for the low quality pictures.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Strangers, Again

2011-05-14T02:55:00.001+08:00

Strangers, Again

Repressed memory is a hypothetical concept used to describe a significant memory, usually of a traumatic nature, that has become unavailable for recall; also called motivated forgetting in which a subject blocks out painful or traumatic times in one's life. This is not the same as amnesia, which is a term for any instance in which memories are either not stored in the first place (such as with traumatic head injuries when short term memory does not transfer to long term memory) or forgotten.

The term is used to describe memories that have been dissociated from awareness as well as those that have been repressed without dissociation. Repressed memory syndrome, the clinical term used to describe repressed memories, is often compared to psychogenic amnesia, and some sources compare the two as equivalent.

According to proponents of the hypothesis, repressed memories may sometimes be recovered years or decades after the event, most often spontaneously, triggered by a particular smell, taste, or other identifier related to the lost memory, or via suggestion during psychotherapy.- Wikipedia

This post is specially created for my ex, which is a loser. Recently I found him in Facebook and decided to add him. Once he approved me...

Ex: thanks for the add. mind to intro?
Swee Teng: sweeteng. forgotten me already?
Ex: er. kinda..

So yea, it's either he did it purposely or he really forgotten about me.

# If he did it purposely,
All I can say is, only jerks will do that. I might have hurt you last time but please la, it has been three years and you're still keeping grudge? Childish and superbly immature.

# If he really forgotten about me,
Wow, I didn't know I have caused such a big impact on you. So much for such a big guy like you.Pfft.

In a boyfriend- girlfriend relationship, everything started with friendship. Then, love, then break up. I guessed that most of you have watched "Stranger, Again" from YouTube. If you haven't, watch the video below.

In my opinion, as long as ex(s) still talk to each other, it's not considered as strangers.

In my situation, this is what I called STRANGERS, AGAIN. And no, nothing is going to start all over again. Once a stranger, forever a stranger.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

College's Craziness

2011-05-10T18:51:00.001+08:00

College's Craziness

Hye peeps

As mentioned in my previous post, I have been slacking in my studies recently. Yea, now I am going to tell you why.

First of all, under my friends' last minute random crazy decision, we went to KLCC at 8pm to watch a movie. We watched Thor. Such an awesome movie. Full of suspense and actions going around. It is a must-watch movie, I say =)

Next was making French toast moment. It was my very first time cooking with friends and I can't believe that my first home-made-without-help food are actually edible. Muahaha. I rock! x)

Third, was waxing leg moment. No, these are NOT my legs. It is my godbro's leg. I, somehow just forced him to be my guinea pig and walah!, a before and after effect. Waxing definitely brings a lot of differences. Need any help in waxing? Call me. XD

Last but not least, I have been paying too much attention on my hamster recently. And honestly, I started to grow some motherly love in myself. Whee~!

So now that you know why am I slacking in studies, should I just slap myself? =P

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Slacking In Studies

2011-05-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

Slacking In Studies

Back to KL and life is back to normal- study study study but somehow I think I just lost my mood and start to slack off. Screwed up today's diagnostic test. Someone, just slap me please. I need motivation but there's too much of distractions- pool, friends, party and etc. T__T What should I do?

I'm glad that we still can be best friends. Thanks for treasuring our friendship.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Mother's Day 2011

2011-05-02T18:31:00.000+08:00

Mother's Day 2011

You're the most awesome and coolest mum that no one can ever replace. You are the one who brought me into this world. You taught me how to walk & run. You changed my stinky yucky diaper everyday and yet, you never complain. You brought me up with patience and love, and what am I today, is all thanks to you. I may have hurt you, hated you or being angry at you but you still love me, more and more as days pass.

When I grow up, I don't want to be famous. I don't want to be a star. I just want to be like you. A strong woman with strong determination. Successful in every aspect- family and career. The woman which will never give up but to try harder and harder to achieve for the best of the best. An independent woman that always ensure things go as planned.

Happy Mother's Day, mummy! I love you!

Pictures of Mother's Day's celebration held on 30th April 2011

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Heart Broken

2011-04-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

Heart Broken

I'm the one who ask for break up but I don't know why I feel like I'm the one who just got dumped. Couldn't even eat, sleep or study. I even lost my smile.How pathetic. Ended up buying a book to cheer myself up. Gah.

Swee Teng, you just got to be strong!!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Lost In KL

2011-04-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Lost In KL

Sorry guys. Was too bored. Please bear with my vain pictures. Anyway, exciting part of the day is when my friend and I went hiking/ walking around KL area. At the end of the day, both of us got lost and decided to stop a taxi to get back to our hostel. Even the taxi driver was laughing at us. He said if we were to continue walking, we might ended up in Damansara, when we started our walk at PWTC. What an epic. Lesson of the day: Never walk without knowing the directions.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Sem One Exam Result

2011-04-22T19:27:00.000+08:00

Sem One Exam Result

After studying so hard, I finally got what I want. Exam result was out today and I expected a CGPA 3.5. But thank God, bless you. I got more that what I expected. A CGPA 4.0. This is more than enough and actually, more that I can ever ask for. Thank God for always being there for me (although I don't really believe in you). Since now I can stop being worry about semester one exam result, I can start concentrating on semester two. Well, once again, I got to work hard. Another CGPA 4.0, I'm going to get you!

p.s.: Mummy, I hope you're proud of me =)

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Back To December

2011-04-21T22:29:00.001+08:00

Back To December

Did a stupid mistake in my life. Everything was just a game but I took it so seriously. And yea, here am I now. Lost, hurt, and scared. Now I may have hurt someone who is important to me. Most of all, I might lose everything that I treasure from the start, I am such a fool for not knowing that this is coming. I am so stupid for not controlling myself. I am the idiot that fall for you. Yes, I think I like you. I think I love you. But do you? Please fill in my blanks

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Better Week

2011-04-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

Better Week

As I mentioned, last two weeks weren't really a good start-off for my semester two. However I am glad that recently, everything turns back to normal and I am back my hyper self. So far, I can catch up with Chemistry and Biology as I learnt it before. For Physics, I am kind of worry because college changed a new lecturer for my class. Same goes to Maths. I got a new Maths lecturer and for the first time in my life, I dislike my Maths lecturer and I feel so stupid during Maths lesson. Well, I don't know who to blame. Is either I am too stupid or the lecturer is just bad in explaining theories and formulas.

Not only that, tomorrow or the day after tomorrow will be the day where my semester one final examination result will be released. I honestly hope that I can get at least a CGPA of 3.5. I do not want to retake or feel disappointed anymore. Oh God, please bless me. As for semester two, I guess that I really have to work extra hard. MMMC, here I come! =D

Recent addiction in class: BODY ART =P

And my most favourite body art

Yea, I have such an artistic friend who wants to be an engineer. LOL

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Family Rocks!

2011-04-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

Family Rocks!

Family bonding moment never disappoint me.

So yea, my family came to KL again to pay me a visit.Although we do the same thing during each visit- shopping, lunch and etc, my excitement for the day to come again just getting bigger and bigger. I never know that family can bring such a great joy and happiness in my life although it's just a few hours meet-up. Mum was actually tired but because she promised to visit me, she forced herself to come here. I feel guilty but I'm not going to let her do that anymore. I'm going to finish this course as soon as possible so she will stop being worry about me.Honestly, even if KL has so many awesome friends, shopping malls and clothes, nothing is better compared to home sweet home, don't you think so? Even if it's a small one, every small little thing that my family does, makes me the happiest and luckiest person on Earth!

sis and I actually bought the same ring too. aww... xP
Oh ya, did I mentioned that I saved a kitten from a heavy rain few days ago? It's something that I have never done before and I felt so noble. x)
ignore the blue eyes. it's just too creepy. p.s.: I'm coming back to Penang on Labour Day! whee~

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Care Less

2011-04-15T20:12:00.001+08:00

Care Less

Just when you don't know what you want, you become more greedy and not contented. Without realising, you lose more than you really know. Family, friends and most of all, love. Obviously, for a person like you, it doesn't matter. No matter how many time you're advised and given guides, you never listen but to be stubborn. You, will soon fall deep into the grave that you dug. And soon, you'll know you lose everything and no one will be there to help you. I won't be there for you anymore because you never appreciate me. You took me for granted. Easy in and easy out. That's your principle. Not mine. Don't bullshit with me because whatever that you do, opposes what you said. Action speaks louder than word. I know how hypocrite you are. God knows too. Only you, who are too stupid for not knowing your true inner self. I tried to help you but it seems that you don't need me. So what, I have less problem to be worried anyway. Do whatever that you want. You're selfish anyway. You never know that there's actually someone out there, waiting for you, still cares for you. If you want to do something that causes people to stop liking you, GO AND DON'T REGRET!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Emo

2011-04-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

Emo

Semester One final examination is finally over. Now it's time to focus on Semester Two. I really hope that I won't screw up this semester because I do not want history to repeat one more time. Recently, I have been feeling quite emo. I do not know why. Hormone imbalance or the atmosphere in the class has changed? First week of Semester Two is not fun at all. Basically it's like time wasted in college. Haihz. Somebody please slap me for being such an unhappy girl. I dislike my condition right now.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

2011-04-10T18:34:00.000+08:00

Yea, at the end of the day, he was right after all. You couldn't please everyone that you know and obviously not everyone is please with you. So what do you have to with it? MOVE ON, BABY! I'm not going to let such a small matter to affect me mentally or physically because pleasing people was not the reason I came here. Backstabber, hypocrites, bitch and etc. People might just label you for no reason so let it be.

In my opinion, if you did not so such stuff, you don't have to feel offended at all. Why so sensitive? =/ Well, I have no idea of what you're thinking and I don't have such interest to know. So, from now on, lets mind our business only ok? =)

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Carrot

2011-04-02T12:13:00.000+08:00

Carrot

In case you're wondering, I got myself a hamster three weeks ago. I named it Carrot, credits to a friend who called me Carrot. LOL. And if you read my older post, this is my forth hamster. Well, I shall let the pictures do the talking. Will update more after my finals :)

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Unavailable

2011-03-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

Unavailable

STUDY MOOD: ON

Very busy recently. Just realise that my final exam will be in less than two weeks. So yea, I got to work hard now. Lesser time on the Internet especially Facebook and blogging. Will be back as soon as exam is over.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Coming Back To Penang

2011-03-05T17:22:00.000+08:00

Coming Back To Penang

Been feeling so emo recently. For no reason actually and that feeling sucks like hell. My mood is now like a pendulum. Now it's up, but the next minute, it's down. Ugh. Feel like slapping myself now. Anyway, I have to two news to announce.

First, I am coming back to Penang on next Wednesday. Awesome or what? Finally I get to have the chance to meet with my friends and hang out with family. It's been a long time since I actually had a good chit chat with them. Not to forget the lover boy who I abandon in Penang too. Penang, oh Penang, here I come! Although it is only for three days, I am going to make good use of the time that I have.

Second, I finally get to buy myself a LV handbag using my own money. Sorry people. It's not the thousands Ringgit Malaysia LV handbag. It's the Jalan Pudu RM70 fake LV handbag. It looks so real for a fake handbag thou. I know it's embarrassing but I am just a moneyless girl stranded in KL. However, one day, I am going to get the real one! All I gotta do is to work hard!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

We Both Know Its Better If We Just Let It Go

2011-03-03T17:44:00.000+08:00

We Both Know Its Better If We Just Let It Go

Like the song above, yea, finally I am decided to let him go. I can't change the way I feel for him but no point holding on him when he don't even notice my existence. Oh well, life is unfair and I still got to deal with it. It's not that I can force him to love me. All I can do is just to watch him from far. As long as he's happy. I'll be fine.

Back to my life in KL. Life here is so far so good. Sometimes can get better but sometimes it's not. Trying to deal everything by myself here. Got elected as a President for Student Council recently. Not much of duties as my class is small. I'm trying to coop with the studies here, especially Physics and Chemistry. I really hope I can do well here. I want to excel this time. Wish me luck, people. Exam in one month time!

To Mr. CJ7, all the best to you.
Maybe if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I We can always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be to much for us to bare I like you but I guess that my feelings for you will never go anywhere.

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

A Tale of Mari and Three Puppies

2011-02-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

A Tale of Mari and Three Puppies

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

Family's Love

2011-02-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

Family's Love

Family crushed into KL again to pay me a visit. This is the second time in three weeks. Thank you, mum. Thanks for coming all the way from Penang to KL just to see me. Thanks for all the love that you gave me. Sorry for bothering you so much. Sorry for making you worry and cry all the time. Sorry for not being a smart child. Sorry for making you drive for hours. I will repay you when I grow up. I promise that I will never let you down again. I love you, mum.

Sis, she is still as annoying and loud as usual. Hear her problems until I had headache and temporary deafness. However, she can sometimes be adorable too. Spent my last RM50 on her but I guess that it's worth it

I guess that I have been taking my family for granted all these while. Never actually sit down properly and think of what they have done for me.Well, time to grow up, Swee Teng. You're going to repay them with more and more love!

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson

I'm A Happy Girl

2011-02-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'm A Happy Girl

Hye peeps! How are you? Ya ya, I know I have been neglecting my blog for weeks and here I am to update it.

In my previous post, which I have deleted, I mentioned how emo I was in KL but not for now. My life here is getting better.In fact, I no longer feel homesick but obviously, home is always the best. Mum don't allow me to come back to Penang so yea, I'm practically stuck in KL.

As you all know, I'm staying in hostel for the moment. I got myself a room mate. Although it was not in my original plan but somehow, I am glad that my room mate and I manage to stay together harmoniously. Not having my mum around, I have been skipping meals for quite a long time. Most of the time, I eat biscuits and cup noodles. Too lazy to get my ass up and walk to food court or restaurant to eat. I think by six months, I will be able to lost at least 5kg. Muahaha!

As for college, you can say that I am the most noisy student in class. Good or bad, I don't know. But I know that I'm getting more and more friends everyday. Beside that, I got elected randomly by lecturer to be a Physics class monitor. Trust me, this is the most illogical incidence in my whole life. I intended to drop Physics but God has His own way to make me into a Physics monitor. Oh God, now I know how great is your power. Furthermore, being in college for less than a month, three assignments have been given to me. Babi. So fast and so sudden.

And therefore, I don't think I will be able to update my blog frequently anymore. For more updates, you can always check my Facebook. By the way, some people mistaken my Tumblr as my blog. No, my dear. Tumblr is not my blog. I use it to repost and reblogging purposes only, and now, I shall end my post here with my love from KL. xoxo

★ Swee Teng

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Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up- Jesse Jackson